Friday, March 21, 2014
As I've gotten older, I realize that my tolerance for being around people has shifted. Before, I had the need to be around people that were fun and made me feel good. While this is important, I feel the need now for bigger things. Like loyalty. Trust. Presence. I want to teach my school bus full of children how to be a GOOD friend to people. I want my kids to see that when Mama has tears in her eyes, only the true people are there to comfort and listen. Because, the truth is that I'd rather be alone than surrounded by selfish and rotten. I've lied about stupid and ridiculous things in the past. Made up stories to spare a "friend's" feelings. I was wrong. I'll carry that burden as I see fit. But in my defense...I must say that if I felt comfortable with you, "friend", I wouldn't have seen it as my only option. I wanted to trust you, because that's what friends do. You have a body you need to hide? Call me. I'll help you dig the hole. That's what I'm looking for. As someone's friend, in my opinion, you shouldn't judge. Offer advise, yes. Tell someone how crazy they are, absolutely. But to hold judgement and then offer any information collected as a "friend" to threaten or cause turmoil is not and will not be tolerated. EVER. I realize that this post comes across as random and maybe a bit jaded. I feel that it may speak to those using this blog as a last resort of keeping tabs on what's going on in my life. I know. Google tells me who you are.